| To Paulina |
[May. 2nd, 2011|11:14 pm] |
This is the only photo i have of just the both of us. Even though i have only known you for a short 5 months, we've so many unforgettable moments together. Its funny that when jacob, joel and I talk about you, we laugh and cry at the same time. I doubt i can make it through this post without crying.
When i first heard of you it was through joel, and he told me how excited he was that his brother had such a kick-ass girlfriend, who was hilarious and was willing to hang out with him.
My first close encounter with you was during the mission trip in Chengdu, when you came over into my room and i was in my long johns and you mocked me and called me a piglet. And how we clicked instantly and before we knew it we were making fun of people around us and laughing till we cried (because your jokes are so kp) . And you kept making jokes about my xueqiao boots -_- I will never forget the time we tried to be hardcore gamers, going to play L4D so many weekends in a row until the uncle recognised us and we realised what big losers we were. And the endless nights just lying around and watching HIMYM till we slept. And how we managed to lure you out to play kinet with us by using pancakes. And how we made fun of joel the tea-cup pig (its my wallpaper now). The endless discussions (hahah) about people when you and jacob drove me home after island creamery. I was just so so glad that jacob was dating you, and brought you to trbc because finally i meet a girl in chruch with the same wave-length. You have built him up the right way and made him a happier, better person.
I acually wrote a christmas card to you and being the terribly ineffiecient person that i am i failed to send it out. I remember writing about how i wished you would continue coming to trbc, and how i thought you and jacob were my favourite couple. Your bag of clothes (including your pink romper which you love but you say makes you look like a slut ) are still at my house and I dont know what to do with it.
Just 2 weeks ago joel was bugging us to take a group picture (for some reason we never take photos), and we did. It was our first and last photo, jacob says it "feels like a freaking show". We miss you dearly.
23 is too young to go.So many dreams left unfufilled, i wish you had more time here, but i take comfort in the knowing that you are safe in a higher place. And the fact that you did not live a wasted life, but one with dignity. I love you and miss you dearly. |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2010|11:14 am] |
2009 has been kind to me, its been a better year than i could imagine. dreading this year, counting down to 2010 shouting "NOOO i dont want it to come!!" with the girls. I'm determined to get through this shit!!!!! despite how cliche it is, i still think that resolutions are necessary to start the new year. Keeping mine simple, none of those "stay true to yourself", "be a better person" kind of resolutions. I just want to treat my dad better, harder than it seems though.
i wish i could sum up 2009 with a super long entry with pictures and thoughts about people etc, but im too tired to do it. as long as i can keep those mental screenshots of 2009 in my head, its good enough for me. :) |
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[Dec. 27th, 2009|09:38 pm] |
By the time i send out my xmas cards, it will be new year.
I am efficient like that. |
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